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April
21, 2003 OK, what the hell is going on? Where have I been what am
I doing? Version<03 came and went. Domes were built, brains were picked,
wires were run, and people were exhausted and excited. The war has come and gone
(or has it?) I was busy making love not war. Spring has come and I’m excited.
What a lovely Easter.
If you go to the link I warn you, the other things there – I neither endorse
or deny their credibility, it’s just tought to find a good page on Easter
being the same as the holiday to Ishtar without it being some fire and
brimstone page
from a fundamentalist Christian. <sigh> Why don’t Christians see that the further they get away
from the rememberance of this earth and her cycles the closer they come to
making this place hell? March
13, 2003 Wow, has it been a month? OK so we had the closing party
for the Eskimo show, my Mac weirded out and didn’t resize all my photos and
I’ve been too lazy to do it again (so many), the 10x10 conversion went well so
those are up, with all sorts of wrestin’ and pudding eating action! Also version>03
is coming volunteer
if you can, anything you’ve got to give, love or money. Or simply come down
and participate and take part in the workshops and conferences. February
14, 2003 First: Happy Valentine’s Day! Spread the love y’all! So… I’m in this Eskimo
show – you know? The runway for the fashion show is amazing, the
show is going to be awesome! Me and Kelly are building an igloo with a
diorama fishing hole… it’s going to be so awesome! So come to Heaven Gallery
this Saturday! Not to worry about our domestic policy folks! Here’s a
quote from by Andrew Card, White House, Chief of Staff from this weekend on
Meat the Press: "There's a sausage machine on Capitol Hill. We gave
the sausage machine all of the right ingredients, they have to churn, and I'm
confident that when they turn that sausage out it'll be the right kind of
sausage for America." Do they want us to chew or just swallow? January 21, 2003 Alright! Super fun photos of Yoshie's haircutting party are up! See... Also Elisa's got her photos of the party as well, with commentary. What a great way to spend a Sunday evening -- and what a great way for you to spend part of your lunch break. After you are done with your lunch, why not check out the photos from my harrowing experience with an exacto knife? Come on, you know wanna... January 19, 2003 Yay! Just got my cut at the Asian sweatshop -- photos coming soon! Also the igloo project is coming along nicely... stayed tuned. January
9, 2003 Alright!
The new year’s photos are up
along with links to Kelly
and Elisa’s New Year’s
photo pages. Alas there is no commentary with my photos, nonetheless, as you
will see I took my photos at the very beginning and the end – the middle is
all fuzzy for me but there is one of the dance
floor packed – woo hoo! That was so great, it’s never been that packed with
actually dancers (not a single parker!). The rest explains itself I think the
balloon remnant on the floor, the bottles and cans, Miguel laying on the
sidewalk talking on his cel phone, the break dancing was great (props to
Marty, Doug, Ringo, Rotten Milk, and all others ????,
sorry it had to be a cement floor, bring some lino next time :) And to Ringo:
the Old Style box on the head was fucking genius, as you can see by the look
in Ed’s eyes! Well, go look at ‘em already! January
2, 2003 Wow! We
did it, we rang in the new year with a balloon drop, a champagne toast, a
2003 light up sign that worked after everyone went home, and 15 bags of trash!
There were some spilled drinks no spilt blood – thanks for the nice vibes,
good feelings, and genuine openness everyone was showing – which is needed
now more than ever. Thanks again to: Kelly for not only the ride to the
liquor store (!) but for the always candid and telling Polaroids (when they
are scanned in at NCFC I’ll
let you know), Yoshie and Joe from Nipporn
for the video memories (Isaac we sorely missed you (and missed making you
sore)), Mike Raczyla for the pre party work and DJ work, of course Logan
whose tireless efforts and careful planning put those $100 club parties to
shame with our special blend of ghetto-tech magic, and everyone else who made the party a good place to be.
When my room gets decompressed I’ll put up my photos. I warn you they are
mostly blurry impressions, I was having such a good time I forgot all about
taking pictures but there are some gems. OK – peace and love to you all. December
31, 2002 Oh my
god, it's here! New Year's Eve at BnB! We got the goods for you this year:
Logan has lost sleep and finger skin inflating hundreds of balloons,
champagne, cocktails, a video wall with Yoshie Suzuki getting the guests hot
and bothered in the Video Memory Room, Kelly Noah making you feel famous with
her infamous polaroids,
DJs Logan Bay, justjoel, M. Raczyla, and so much more. December
18, 2002 The
cast is off and my arm is free! But it feels very
weird. Anyway, now I can get to work at home and get ready for the New Year’s Party! We are going to have a great time
this year as always. See you there. December 5, 2002 We are enabling live streaming for the Select Media Festival this Thursday, December 5 -> Sunday, December 8th - check it out on the web or better yet in person! Sorry I can't make it tonight, but this Monday I had an accident at work while cutting through a cable tie with an exacto.. after successfully cutting through, the exacto and its force went on into my arm, I plunged it all the way in my left forearm, and neatly severed my radial nerve. All my tendons and muscles are fine, thank god, but I lost sensation on the back of my left hand. They had to reattach the nerve today, that went well, I am in a half cast and on Vicodine now. So thanks to Kelly for all the help this morning and to Santi for the streaming help up at SMF tonight. I'll see y'all later. November
27, 2002 DSL is
down at my place but that’s OK I won’t be there – I’ll be in Kansas City
until Sunday. I hope every has a
super surreal awkward gay ass Thanksgiving, and to those who don’t –
to those who have no reservations about getting together with disparate
factions of family with a guise of normality… well then… uh… what meds are you
on and who’s your doctor? On a
lighter note: Does Tivo think you’re gay? Read… November 20, 2002 A beautiful gem in this rough world: Today was a lousy day. I was tired and unmotivated at work, without much rest from the night before. I malaised my way through the day, doing what needed to be done then going back to my dim office looking for another job, surfing, and frittering away the day. Too tired to go home right away, I stayed and wrote a reply email to friend I haven't seen in 8 years. Feeling better, I was about to leave and the phone rang, I decided to be nice and pick it up. I was on the phone for the next 38 minutes trying help someone check his *!&#@ email - and it didn't get resolved! Utterly exhausted I left work at 7:00, to walk the streets, get some air, and to think. Knowing my destination was the sale racks at Urban Outfitters and the Gap in the Gold Coast. I thought, "How pathetic have a bad day and what do you want to do, Joel? Shop. Consume." How cliche and typical... Well I found some great pants on sale, and lightened up a bit. Nonetheless, the day was still shitty, I was still in a funk and I didn't know what was ever going to snap me out of it. (Then train I was on didn't go all the way and I had to get off and wait for the next and I was sooo hungry. <sigh>) But soon I was on my bike headed for Lawrence Fisheries to get some Sea Nuggets... Mmmm. I order the nuggets, sat down, put on my headphones, and waited for the sea nuggets to appear out of the corner of my eye. Instead I saw some waving arms, taking off my headphones, the woman behind the counter says sharply, "What's your number? 98?" "No, 97..." I feel bad like I pissed her off wearing the headphones, I keep them off and rest my head on my cupped hand, resigned to the fact that, the whole world was angry, and they probably had good reason to be... so I really wasn't upset by her at all, I was sure she had her reasons for being a little huffy. "97" "That's me... Thanks" "What are those buttons, lemme see" "This one is Heroes home work... this one yay hooray, cute pinkie... I love Fluxcore (to death)... my friend doug with his sunglasses on... I love Felia, felia means love in latin, so its I love love... fluxcore... Dick Cheney our VP with a Texaco logo on his head, this man is evil.... and Shazam" "I think you should give me that felia one" "Oh yah? DO you love love?" "Yes I do" "What's your name?" "Tasha, what's yours?" "Joel" "And its with much love that I give this to you Tasha" "Thank you, what's your name again?" "Joel" "Thanks, will you come back and visit again" "Of course I will I love this place, its 24 hour sea food!" I said thanks and goodnight and as I was leaving she turned around to show the button to her coworkers, "Look what my friend just gave me..." I went outside and then biked home. It felt so good, so refreshing that I was able to _give_ something to someone, a total stranger no less, something of my own, not grudgingly but freely. It made me get watery eyed to think of this reality, where we kindly honor each other by giving what is asked. Understanding in turn by honoring this, we may ask of another, a simple request of no more than they are able to give. I'd like to thank to those in fluxcore who put on Felia last February, it is still being felt in November, for all the love you give and to all the lovers out there, who sometimes may feel they are bleeding to death, hemorraging love, and waiting for their transfusion, sometimes even feeling so weak and saying "no more", only to be surprised out of the blue when you least expect it, a good thing happens and you let it ... November
19, 2002 Wow… so
according to my 20 answers on various moral/theological issues yesterday I am
closest to a Neo-Pagan and today I am closer to Unitarian Universalism… hmmm,
those are such catch-alls for hodge podge belief systems. I always fancied
myself more of a Taoist in ideology... :-/ Oh well – see where you stand at selectsmart.com Just
answer honestly – you don’t want to make baby Jesus cry do
you? ;) Also…. We are
having a “garage sale” – December 15th or 16th – which
is better Saturday or Sunday? I think Saturday, Logan thinks Sunday – both
days? Anyone want to weigh in? Write me.
More details / inventory, in the coming days. November
13, 2002 Do you
need to leave the country? I do, if only for a vacation. First, though, I
need to get a passport
and so should you! Then we can have a passport party! November 9, 2002 Ahhh, Hali Kahiki what a great time of straight drinking - lets go in the way back machine and take a look Novemer
7, 2002 November
1, 2002 Oh my
god -- I am so exhausted from this week, but am proud to open the doors of
Bruner and Bay tonight for Fluxcore's
exhibition “Death”, there’s some great works on the walls and on the screens
(3D suicides!), I hope you come and
enjoy them. October
30, 2002 October 24, 2002 "There's only one peach with the hole in the middle" October
23, 2002 Heaven
help us! Heaven needs help!
For as little as $0 you can help an essential part of Chicago culture pay da
bills – go to Heaven and
don’t let Wicker Park go to hell.
Parent
free and exhausted, wow, there is a lot of work to be done in the next two
weeks… Death is Nov. 1 at Bruner
and Bay space. Hallowave
is Nov. 2 at the Congress – and so much more I don’t even know about. Must
get bloggerized, find costume, post Hali
Kahiki photos, and other great photos I’ve been getting… Help me jeebus! October
17, 2002 Tip: If
you go to the Chocolate
exhibit at the Field Museum make sure you buy
your chocolate before you get there - it is quite expensive AND they won't
let you eat it while you are in the exhibit! So me and my mom had to sneak it
past the security guards and not get caught, heheh. |
October 14, 2002 My mom is here now, visiting/working
this week, perhaps some of you may meet her, she’s a trip. I am so happy to
have her here. I heard some great stories
and songs at Schuba’s last night from Wolf Colonel (Jason Anderson) and
The Blow (Khalea Maricich), it was
so intimate. (As much as I like those pounding club beats, this was a million
times more memorable.) Thanks to Kelly
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October 11, 2002 "Openings" opened tonight at Heaven, nice show, some really cool stuff, but a couple pieces are a tad too high for the vertically challenged... Saw the Blue Man group Thursday night, my Dad really liked it, seeing such creative expression through music and performace really invigorated him. They did an audience sing-along with "White Rabbit", and since I'm on a lyrical roll here, the last line is exaclty what my Dad needs to do: "Feed Your Head". I suggested Communiversity, Kansas City's version of Discovery Center: take a class hope to meet someone interesting, right? People don't take those classes to actually learn something do they?
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October 9, 2002 Okay, after a second listening, I have to say "If I needed someone to love" on Rubber Soul has some pretty banal lyrics (mantra-like really). However on the other side of the spectrum "Flowers Never Bend" must be added to my list of songs with superb lyrics. (the 4th verse is the best.)
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October 8, 2002 While shopping I realized what I needed to
say to Dad, and that is: “Just because you can't have mom doesn’t mean you
can't have the good things in life.” Because right now he doesn’t see anything
good coming his way, and I think he needs
to hear a differing opinion: that
despite heartbreak and regret, good things are out there waiting to happen to
him, if he’ll let them... Just keep playing the game, don’t give up, keep dancing - don’t be a wallflower, you stepped on
some toes but so did your partner, just learn from your mistakes.
He’ll need a breather by the punch bowl for a while, I’m sure.
At the store I had closed my eyes at the checkout and listened to the sounds of everything else going on around me, things that didn't depend on my existence. Totally, removed without ego. Whoa. I then opened my eyes and looked at each person for who they were and what where in that moment, how they were interacting. Very intense, I've never people watched with the clarity of vision I had then. Later listening to Within Without You -ah, spot on. These songs and lyrics really had an impact on me. (Baby Driver is pretty good too *wink wink* nudge nudge* : ) |
